Is Today A Day I'Ll Die?

Suddenly I've realized
I haven't slept since forever
I live in fear оf things I deserve
I need to focus on my thoughts
To find the answer to that question
I need to focus on my thoughts
All in vain

I have nothing to lose anymore
I try to escape from reality
Have I ever had any control?
Is today

А day l'll die?
Nuclear cotton flowers sprout across the sky
It's so beautiful
Even though
Even though
Will destroy us

I haven't slept since forever
I live in fear of things I desire
Maybe I do deserve to go to heaven
Maybe I do deserve to go to hell
But not today

A day I'll die
Nuclear cotton flowers sprout across the sky
It's so beautiful
While destroying us
While destroying us
Destroy