Final Confessions

I wonder God, if you hear me? Spare me a little time
Deep inside I've been screaming analyzing my life
Through these eyes all I'm seeing is this life could kill me
Help me survive, this critical time's hard to deal with
And if I seem like a skeptic Lord, I'm apologetic
Realize I'm regretting these moments I've been pathetic
Even though my intentions weren't meant for the worst
Help me focus through the chapters while I read through the verse
You see I struggle with pressure it's taken its toll
So now I'm praying to you God 'cause it's outta control
I'm feeling weight in the center takin' over my soul
My foes feeling like a million fold, give me hope, no
Finance status, broken I'm so embarrassed
Just a drunk causing havoc, a sucker for bad habits
So while I'm still valid I'm reaching for balance
Jehovah show me that a brother still matters, holla

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done
I wanna say that you're my only one (only one, Lord)
I'm so tired of being in pain
Please take me back to your heart again

Now I'm compelled that your principles resemble the right
You show me light through my struggles in this ebony life
Forgive me of my transgressions, I'm losing this fight
I know I'm weak in the enemy's sight, aiight?
I understand as a man I'm gon' reap what I sow
But on the other hand I'm weakest when I'm deep in the cold
No focus zone like I've overdosed I feel the noose start to choke on my throat, I need hope so
Help me walk from this hopeless war
Bring change in my course like Saul to Paul
Not one of these Benny Hinn currency frauds who gettin' rich from the poor off his altar course, come on?
Open my eyes to these phony events
I wanna die in the end with these lowly men
Not prospering over dollars and cents
Come on, people, where's your common sense?
Be honest then

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done? (For the wrongs I have done)
I wanna say that you're my only one (Father)
I'm so tired of being in pain (please forgive)
Please take me back to your heart again (please)

I got a bit of a past can't explain it in words
But you let me know there's always someone copping it worse
Never left me alone though my poisonous thirst
That pushed you down my priorities and stepped in the first
And every step of the way I got caught in the pain
But I was too embarrassed to come calling your name
So now I realize that my lack of attention
Got me begging out for one final confession

I know to suffer than to stand is life
I pray I take it like a man in life
When things don't go the way I planned that's life
But at the end of every path is life
I know it's hard to understand my life
'Cause I'm a victim to my past in life
And Lord, I'm nothing but a man that's right
We stick together for life we tight come on, aiight?

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done? (Wrongs I've done)
I wanna say that you're my only one (only one)
I'm so tired of being in pain (please take me back)
Please take me back to your heart again (yeah)

Forgive my Father for the wrongs I have done?
I wanna say that you're my only one (oh)
I'm so tired of being in pain (yes, Lord)
Please take me back to your heart again (please take)

Father
I apologize for using my gifts you blessed me with in the wrong way at times
And I don't wanna stand here and turn a blind eye to my faults
So I need help to find my way back home to the narrow road
'Cause I ain't happy here
And I ask all this in the name of your son
Amen