Bad Dream

Is this a bad dream? Hmm
'Cause something's missing
I've been thinking some bad things, hmm-mm

I've exhausted every way
I try and nothing change
Let it cycle now I'm back another bottle to the face
Now I'm gonna break, been spiralling away
I'm tired of the chase, so, why am I still awake?

I don't want to feel this, I'm out of other ways
I don't wanna sleep just to fight another day
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy, wait until I'm happy

I don't want to feel this, I'm out of other ways
I've been cycling through demons, which one I got today?
How am I so numb yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy, wait until I'm happy, hmm

Why is my past always present?
I thought I'd move forward, so how is it so heavy?
Made my mistake was forgiven
But none of it left every foot I've been stepping is dragging along
All the weight, I let build in my heart and my soul
It won't let me forget it, so silently I've been confiding
In anything promising me to correct it

It's all been lies 'cause the change not coming
Tricked me and my mind 'til I realized something
I continue chasing highs, climbing these false summits
What'll happen every time? I'ma watch it all plummet
And I'm tired of the fall, trying to turn a new leaf
Mindset gotta change to let go of these problems
So I can meet the new me, but

I've exhausted every way
I try and nothing change
Let it cycle now I'm back another bottle to the face
Now I'm gonna break, been spiralling away
I'm tired of the chase, so, why am I still awake?

I don't want to feel this, I'm out of other ways
I don't wanna sleep just to fight another day
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy, wait until I'm happy

I don't want to feel this, I'm out of other ways
I've been cycling through demons, which one I got today?
How am I so numb, yet I still feel everything?
I'll just wait until I'm happy, wait until I'm happy, hmm