Knee Deep

I look into the future
Blind man I am, it seems
Haunted by visions, despair
I live inside my dreams

I cannot create
I cannot vibrate
Overstimulate
My synapses
This is not me, the mirror lies
I cannot bear the weight, I cannot stand the size

I'm knee deep
in this misery
I'm knee deep
and I can't see

I feel divided
My wholeness I can't place
Lost in doubt
Between hatred and disgrace

Death awaits, the final mystery
Something new it will be
I wait for something no more
I found what searched for me