Digital Jesus

I numb the grief like it's my day job, but I don't blame myself
There's a lot of pain within that could kill a heart
And then I'm backed up in the corner on the floor, bleeding out
While a thousand voices scream, "You don't pray hard enough
Or believe enough or confess enough"
Well, I sure have had enough

God, I want to run
Get me out of this town
Throw my phone into the ocean
And delete all my accounts
'Cause I don't know who you are anymore
And it's time to go find out
So while the world follows digital Jesus
I'm signing out

I'm done with people-pleasing people who'd replace me any day
I'm done giving to a system that only takes
I'm done with keeping my performances up every day
When I just hate myself behind the scenes
Pull the curtain, burn the stage
I'm done playing this game

I want to run
Get me out of this town
Throw my phone into the ocean
And delete all my accounts
'Cause I don't know who you are anymore
And it's time I go find out
So while the world follows digital Jesus
I'm signing out

(Da, di-di-da, da, di-di-da, da, di-di-da), and oh
(Da, di-di-da, da, di-di-da, da, di-di-da)

I want to stand in awe, like staring at a mountain
Wonder like a kid looks up at stars
Like cold water, would you go and shock my system?
Just tear the numbness out of my heart
Yeah, the silence is violent, but I'll take the riot
If that means I feel
I hate that your presence is always present in my messes
But I got to know that you're real

God, can we run
And get out of this town
Throw my phone into the ocean
And delete all my accounts
'Cause I don't know who you are anymore
And I need to go find out
So while the world follows digital Jesus

While the world follows digital Jesus
I'm signing out