Real

Happiness tends to kill, 
Not able to know what's real, 
Numb the pain, with the Novocain, 
May be able to feel, what is real? 
Something that does not exist, 
It Must be inside of my head, 
How am I imagining again, 
Closest people to me aren’t here until the end? 
And supposedly they’re real? 
Walking around without a care in the world, 
Don’t know why they’re not here anymore? 
Emotion goes in to these lyrics that I wrote, 
Lost trying to find hope, where will I go?
On a never ending road, that’ll take me anywhere but home, 
Trying to feel something real but anxiety is starting to kill, 
Everything,
That’s inside of my body,
I got fake people all around me, 
Drowning in my fears, 
Wondering Who is near? 
Not anybody who is real, how does it feel when you have love for somebody, 
That don’t even try to call me
To Kiss me through the phone; to talk to me all night, 
To Tell me everything is gonna be alright, 
Someone i wish i could be with, 
That will help me with all my demons, 
That’s only inside of my dreams, 
Hoping that will become reality, 
Daily I continue to think, 
What if I put down my drink, 
Put me in a place where I don’t need it to sleep,
Maybe then I can be real. 
I can be real..