I'M Not Okay

You say time heals —
But I don’t feel a damn thing change.
I’m stuck on that hospital floor,
Still screaming your name.
People keep talkin’ like
They know what I need —
But all their comfort
Feels like gasoline on me.

Don’t tell me to breathe, don’t say “let it go”
You don’t know the storm I hold.
I’m not okay — and I don’t wanna be,
I want the world to bleed like me.
You left a hole that light won’t fill,
I’m angry, raw, and burning still.


They say you’re “in a better place” —
Yeah? Then drag me there too.
‘Cause this place is just ashes
And I’m choking on the truth.
I smile for the crowd,
But inside I’m a bomb —
Tickin’, tickin’,
Ready to go off.


Don’t tell me to breathe, don’t say “let it go”
You don’t know the storm I hold.
I’m not okay — and I don’t wanna be,
I want the world to bleed like me.
You left a hole that light won’t fill,
I’m angry, raw, and burning still.

You were my anchor, my voice, my ground —
Now I’m just noise without a sound.
I curse the sky, I curse the day,
That took you — and walked away.


So don’t try to fix me, don’t fake a prayer,
I don’t need hope — I need you here.
I’m not okay — and I won’t pretend,
This rage is the only thing that understands.
You left a hole, a goddamn scar,
And I’m still screaming where you are.


You’re gone.
And I’m still here.
And I hate it.
I hate it so much.