Better

I've been drinkin'
And I've been thinkin'
That maybe it's not time to fall in love yet
Maybe I need to go deep in
Deep in on myself and how I need a little help
To get back to who I'm bein'
I'ma need more than a weekend
Need some time to really let it sink in

Oh, I, for all of the days that I cried
'Til this one night I decided
I just gotta get my shit right, like

Girl, you're never gonna find a little peace of mind
If you can't treat yourself better
Girl, you'll never be loved the way you deserve
If you can't learn to love you better
Girl, you're never gonna change if you can't rearrange
Your thoughts and keep your head up
Girl

Thinkin' I was always done wrong
Like I never had a choice in it at all
Like I was blind and didn't see the signs
And didn't choose to stay, damn, was it all my fault?
Then I came to realize I used to fantasize
Like it was never you before
In love with an idea after all
Wonder why every time I fall, I

Why, for all of the days I cried
'Til this one night I decided
I just gotta get my shit right, like

Girl, you're never gonna find a little peace of mind
If you can't treat yourself better
Girl, you'll never be loved the way you deserve
If you can't learn to love you better
Girl, you're never gonna change if you can't rearrange
Your thoughts and keep your head up
Girl (Yeah, yeah)

Okay, beep-beep
I still don't got the keys to my Jeep
The promises I made at eighteen feel like deceit
What a crime, it's always on my mind
I said that I would heal this shit, but never had the time
'Cause I'm always on the go and I'm never solo
I'm grateful for the highs, but I be really feelin' low
Like these hoes are deranged, my mistakes are the same
It seems like life is stagnant and like it will never change, like
Rest (Rest), eat (Eat)
Stress (Stress), repeat (Repeat)
Pain (Pain), chains (Chains)
Drownin' (Drownin') deep
I'm just goin' with the flow, repetition's all I know
Feelin' so insecure, but I have to finish the show
We could do this together, ain't gotta do it on my own
And we could all be better, but too busy throwin' stones
You feelin' stressed out, like your home is not a home
Like this poem is not a poem, I promise you are not alone
It's all a facade, we all wanna be great
But the time keeps slippin' and it feels like it's too late
Keep goin' through the same stress just for time's sake
Keep eatin' all the same shit, just on a different plate
Nothin' is ever wrong, the wind is never gone
You are just another queen sittin' on a different throne