Self Destruction

You're such a wannabe

I don't know what's wrong with me
But I need to let it go
It's picking at my head
And leaving all the bones
I know it's hard to try, but I'm tryna to let it go
Part of me accepts you wanna go

It's like a ticking time bomb
I wanna know what's wrong with me
I'm tryna figure it out, I'm trying my best
I wanna cut off all these things
I'm trying to rule these all out
My mind can't take it, I wanna-

Ay, yeah, ay, ay
I wanna go back, go back to the old me
When I was never loved, what I'm better now?
I miss the old times, before the best stop
Before you hated me, you're better dating me

I'm always findin' ways to self-destruct myself
Ruining everything I've ever felt
That's just how I'm supposed to deal with doubt
I could probably find a better out

I'm ticking down my time
Don't question, what's my mind?
Don't play like that, I know
I'm trying all I can
Don't tell me I lost all control again?