Listen (Feat. Big Hoodoo)

"Suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide
Suicide, suicide, suicide, suicide...
At the age of 27, at the age of 27, at the age of 27...
An apparently self-inflicted shotgun wound...
Police say a suicide note was nearby."

Choking on pain killers stuck in my throat
13 Years old writing suicide notes
Hiding razor blade scars under my coat
Got on the internet, learned how to tie a rope to a noose
Domestic abuse, it's well written
You hear "motherfucker" and "die bitch" from out your kitchen
When you intervene, your own neck's getting twisted
To the sound of broken dishes flying all around you bitches
I don't understand, why would you even have children?
When you live in a war zone and the front line is our building
Growing up here, I've seen more than I'd like to witness
Families throwing fists, it's just everyday business
"Get out," my mama tells him
She don't notice me, there's too much distance
I fade back, "See you in hell then"
It wouldn't happen if you only just listened (listened)

I'd be alive today
Only if you heard what I had to say (what I had to say)
Gave me the time of day
I'd probably be alive but I passed away (passed away)
For you, to look at me (to look at me)
For you, for you to just look at me

Things really haven't been the same as they used to be
And she don't think what this shit really does to me
This motherfucker only thought about his own
And when she took him, everything fell apart, now that they gone
I tried to tell her what was going on but she don't wanna listen
Providing for the family has always been the mission
She ain't the type to stick by and show any support
Got a letter from her lawyer saying I need to be in court
For what? You're always fucking screaming at the kids
Treating them like shit, and I can't even begin
To even think that I won't ever see them again
When you lose it, all you think about is getting revenge
She wanna stab me in the back, I'm gonna catch her alone
I'm finna put this bullet in my motherfucking dome
Tried to help her out, she couldn't stop bitching
Could've been happy if you would've just listened (listened)

I'd be alive today
Only if you heard what I had to say (what I had to say)
Gave me the time of day
I'd probably be alive but I passed away (passed away)
For you, to look at me (to look at me)
For you, for you to just look at me

Big Hoodoo, I specialize in dead speaking
The jinx on me quick to leave a hater's head leaking
Life's fucked up, I feel like I might die tonight
Smoking on some fireworks while I'm sniffing dynamite
Cannibal animals, we learn from Hannibal Lecter
Dismantle cantaloupes, get rid of bodies like I'm Dexter
Cut from a different texture, I'm a murder expert
My eyes go black, I'll pull your ribs out your fucking sweatshirt
Never had, so I'm thinking death must be nice
And I'm homicidal, so I'm also thinking fuck your life
Moms told me she gave birth to an evil genius
Cause she was pregnant doing drugs, bumping Kill the Fetus
My voodoo got em singing, yeah motherfuckers
It's Hoodoo swinging with the Garcia brothers
Fucked up, now we in our graves reminiscing
Of how our lives would be if the world would've only listened

I'd be alive today
Only if you heard what I had to say (what I had to say)
Gave me the time of day
I'd probably be alive but I passed away (passed away)
For you, to look at me (to look at me)
For you, for you to just look at me