Cathedral

I killed myself for you
Became the mirror, became the muse
Built a life of glass and gold
But never mine to hold
You dreamed a world with velvet vows
I made myself fit in somehow
Sat quiet in a hostile pew
Every prayer I whispered was for you
Your hands, your needs, your morning tea
You wept and I wore apathy
Called my heart a foolish thing
So I let it bleed in offering
This cathedral is a cage
With stained glass lies and wedding veils
I gave my soul, I turned the page
But the altar was betrayal
You lit the candles just to watch them burn
And still I stayed
Still I yearned
You laughed at the stars I reached for
Called them fiction, called me poor
Twelve-hour shifts became your badge
And I? The dream you made collapse
You cried to me, and I stayed dry
Silent, soft, a lullaby
I hushed myself to comfort you
But who was left to hold me too?
You said"Grow up" I tried, I did
Killed the artist, burned the kid
But I still see them in my sleep
Buried somewhere six dreams deep
This cathedral is a cage
With stained glass lies and wedding veils
I gave my soul, I turned the page
But the altar was betrayal
You lit the candles just to watch them burn
And still I stayed
Still I yearned
Long vision of perfection
Wasn't love, it was correction
Dress me up in Sunday white
Just to slaughter me at night"Grow up""Provide""Be the man""Be the plan""Take the stand"
But when I bled out in that pew
Not a single prayer was said for me, too
You used me like a prophecy
Twisted fate so toxically
Holy roof, unholy chains
Even saints would cry my name
I bit my tongue till it split
And tasted guilt on every kiss
My dreams? You called them petty sin
So I confessed, and caved again
This cathedral is a cage
But I've burned the veil, escaped the stage
I gave my soul, no more the same
Now the altar knows my name
You lit the candles just to watch them die
But I am flame
I won't comply