February

Wide awake I lie where time just sits aside
A place where time has no meaning
Your mind will finally tire, your eyes begin to fade
Another night staring at the ceiling
And this will take a while, if I hope to sleep tonight
My mind is running out of places to hide away

Just let your mind go
A constant painful reminder that I'm not the one in control
Just let yourself go
I'm just a passenger stuck with the driver asleep at the wheel

The calm is calling
But I'm nowhere to be found

I had no idea the overwhelming dreams
That I had will never come to be
It's not supposed to be so wrong
Or have it take so long
I'm sorry, but I know that I'm so hard to love

Poisoned by the thoughts of the home that I once had
Consumed by the guilt I've seen first hand
We never get back the time we lost
Do you wish me well and forgive what I've done?
Forgive what I've done

You walked away from everything
When you swore that your heart was so holy
Feet planted in place so roots can take
And you know that I'll be here waiting

You walked away from everything
When you swore that your heart was so holy
Feet planted in place so roots can take
And you know that I'll be here waiting

The calm is calling
But I'm nowhere to be found