Not Who I Was
Bflannagan
2:48I was raised in the storm, learned to bend with the wind Taught to stay quiet, keep the pain locked within I called it strength just to cover the hurt But silence don't heal what's buried in dirt I see the cracks where the damage begins And I swear on my soul it won't touch my kids I'll carry the weight, but I won't pass it on Turn pain into purpose before I'm gone No more silence, no more shame I'm breaking the cycle, rewriting the pain The demons that haunt me won't know their name I'll face everyone until they are tamed I sit with the pain, I used to outrun Trace every scar back to where it begun I ask myself why and I listen real close To unlearn the tactics I used to cope Facing the triggers 'til they lose their claim So my babies don't feel that flame I'll carry the weight, but I won't pass it on Turn pain into purpose before I'm gone No more silence, no more shame I'm breaking the cycle, rewriting the pain The demons that haunt me won't know their name I'll face everyone until they are tamed My trauma was loud, it echoed for years But my healing is louder, it silences fear I rose from the ruins with fire and grace Took back my voice, let it burn through the haze I rewrote the ending they said I would face And now, I'm the storm that keeps pain in its place I'll carry the weight, but I won't pass it on Turn pain into purpose before I'm gone No more silence, no more shame I'm breaking the cycle, rewriting the pain The demons that haunt me won't know their name I'll face everyone until they are tamed Until they are tamed Until they are tamed Until they are tamed