Blk Xmas

All the shit you seen
My nigga, nightmares, didn't come during dreams

Teens is the zombies
Open the scene, armed robberies
Twin fifteens carbon copies, autopsies
Street life adopted me
Dying young was the prophecy
I was raised improperly in poverty
Malnourished, food a commodity
Bare feet, missing teeth
Raggedy clothes, you'd think they trying to trick or treat
Had to walk the streets when it was beef
To be frank, it was gore
Scared to fall asleep
They want you to rest in peace in the morgue
Gamblers, scammers, grandmas in pajamas
Niggas home from the slammer tryna get ahold of the hammer
Funds is tight when the breadwinner get natural life
Or hit with the RICO for packaging white
The strain
To maintain can make you deranged
Acting strange
'Cause meds do more than take away the pain
Insane
Panic attacks, you can't relax
From having first dibs to what's left of the scraps
Horror, drama, suspense
It's a thriller if you can pay the rent
Direct threats at people trying to evict
This flick as real as it gets
Depicting it after living it
It's sickening
Gruelser

You walked a long way 'cause the shelter too crazy
You gotta test the yay, nowadays that shit brazy
Even the weed sprayed, they paying more, you couldn't pay me
You couldn't pay me
You walked a long way 'cause the shelter too crazy
You gotta test the yay, nowadays that shit shady
Even the weed sprayed, you couldn't pay me

Neighbors just got evicted
How you gon' put folks out a week before Christmas?
And they got kids
Them people sick in they head, it's sickening
Everything niggas got tossed in the street
Crying kids, it's wicked
Took what they could fit in a cousin
Whip in two trips, the rest just sit
Nobody wants to be the first, but it's just it
Eventually, people start picking and sifting through
Not proud, but eventually, I was with 'em too
Pots and pans in the kitchen, few old clothes
My kids is little, they won't know the difference
Dogs with their heads missing
Wild-eyed rocking horse, mouth carved into a frown
Family photos scattered on the ground
But they not of that family, I put 'em down
A light drizzle drove me back inside the house
Barred the door, sat on the couch
Put the stuff on the floor
Everywhere it's hungry mouths
It's gnawing doubt
Dreams where teeth keep falling out
And they insisting it's hamburger meat, but it taste type foul
Didn't want the doctor to turn
I knew it'd be something awful on the ultrasound
Sat up in my sleep stifling a scream
That rent got me feeling I'm fit to drown
Storm drains full of clowns, tent cities on the edge of town
Squeaky wheel on the shopping cart so you know when they coming around
What you took, you can't give back now
Nah, they on you like hounds