Violent Delights, Violent Ends

Did you blindly blame yourself once again?
You feel sorry for this but you can't just pretend
Now I crawl into the abyss but I plan to reascend
Six feet under the sea but the rays still light me
I see traces in the sand
I see traces in the sand
Stop to pretend
Now I reascend
I realized maybe the one to blame is not myself
Make me feel bad, I'm tired, I'm tired to feel the guilt
I'm swimming on the surface tying to find a way
But your negativity destroys me at the end of the day
I'm feeling weak, it makes me crawl, I can't react so I collapse on the ground
Oh my god I have an heart attack
Then
Kill me without hesitation
Let me suffer slowly your intentions are
To drown and tear me apart
Bury me at sea
Falling into hallucination
I sink where there's no salvation
Now I know what is all about
I give up please don't blame me
Now I mourn on my knees but I plan to defend
Rain is falling on me
But the flame is still there
Plant a seed in the sand
I see traces on my hands
Kill me without hesitation
Let me suffer slowly your intentions are
To drown and tear me apart
Bury me at sea
Falling into hallucination
I sink where there's no salvation
Now I know what is all about
I give up please don't blame me
Now I mourn on my knees but I plan to defend
Rain is falling on me
But the flame is still