You Wanted Wanting

You said you missed me
Before you knew me
Spoken futures, like they'd already passed
Your hands were soft
But your eyes kept drifting
Like you were kissing someone else, through glass

You called me like
When you were drowning
I thought the men had made you breathe
But you just needed something shining
To prove you still could make hearts believe
I let you in, like it was safe
But your rake was shaped like mine
But you were never reaching for me, just the feeling of being inside

You wanted wanting
Not me, not this
Just the echo of love
You could borrow that mask
You wanted wanting
And I gave it all
Now I'm hollowed out
Where I thought love would grow

You want my words, like borrowed clothing
So me, I'll watch just what you need
But every touch, the night we had so
Like you were acting out a dream

I saw the cracks but kept on dancing
Thought maybe I could make it real
But you were lonely, not in love
And I was just the way I feel

Was I ever real to you?
Or just proof you could still be undone
You built a home inside my home
Then left before you closed the door

You wanted wanting
And I gave you mine
Now I'm bleeding out
In the shape of your lies
You wanted wanting
And I played the part
But you never held me
You just held your heart

You said you missed me
Before you knew me
Now I miss the me I was before