Resent And Regret

I will always regret
Living past the age
Of people better than me
What they don't say
Is once people die
You'll even miss the pain they gave

And I said
Last night when I saw you in my head
It's so good to see you again
You pulled me in against your chest

I miss my family
I miss my friends
I know you were doing your best
I miss all the people that weren't supposed to die yet
I hated feeling
I hated feeling so far away (so far away)
From everybody

By the time I was ready
To show you who I've become (who I've become, who I've become)
You were gone
Life isn't fair (fair)
It's meaningless (meaningless)
Without someone to share it with

If dreams are the only place we're allowed to speak (allowed to speak)
Then I hope today is the last time I'm awake (I'm awake)
I don't know if you'd be proud of me (proud of me)
I don't know if life could ever make you happy
Wherever you are, I hope that the pain is gone
I felt so much resentment for my life not being perfect
But at least
At least you were a part of it

I still love everyone I've ever loved
I'm still working on feeling like I'm enough
And when it seems
Like I can't go on (I still love everyone that I've ever loved)
I'm still working on feeling like I'm enough (on my own)
And when it seems like I can't go on (my own)
I know that I'll see you after every setting sun