Lying To Myself

I've spiraled every night, just let it go
Every motion of your lips was a lie you told
Shouldn't retrace steps yeah, I should've known
That this place is a waste
Sinks right into my bones
Separation from new to old
I swear the air has never felt so cold
I can't breathe when I'm next to you
I'm always proving worth what can I do?
Yeah I sit and I wait for the change in my fate
Luck's never been my friend
Here to remind me of mistakes I've made
Oh
So tear me apart right now
Cause I don't feel much anymore
I carried the weight somehow
And I can't stop it falling
Words became so subliminal
Months pass by where nothing's right at all
I'm lying to myself
So tear me up yeah, just tear me up
Our connection has faded on
I keep stepping over lines I've drawn
Tried to test our fate? We're already gone
Yeah I want you to stay but here's too much that went wrong
So get it off, get it off your chest
Cause the best of us ain't good enough
Make it up, make it up. Just put another
Fracture in my heart then leave me alone
Yeah I sit and I wait for the change in my fate
Luck's never been my friend
Here to remind me of mistakes I've made
Oh
So tear me apart right now
Cause I don't feel much anymore
I carried the weight somehow
And I can't stop it falling
Words became so subliminal
Months pass by where nothing's right at all
I'm lying to myself
So tear me up yeah, just tear me up
I refuse to believe that it was fate
And who am expect change?
Don't make me
Say I never thought it
Hid it when I doubted
Faking every smile with pain beneath It
Sleep always evasive
Words they're too abrasive
Razor sharp moments that we can't ever change
So tear me apart right now
Cause I don't feel much anymore
I carried the weight somehow
And I can't stop it falling
Words became so subliminal
Months pass by where nothing's right at all
I'm lying to myself
So tear me up yeah, just tear me up