Smokin' With Myself

I no crowd, no hype, no show
Just me and the flame, burning real slow
Mirror don't lie, eyes looking through
I roll off truth, and hell was true

Sat with my thoughts, didn't run this time
Packed that bowl, like a piece of mine
Every hit, a question I ain't asked
Every exhale, let go of the past

Used to fake a smile just to keep the peace
Now I'm puffin' honesty, piece by piece
Learning who I am without the noise
Just a flawed soul, no front, no ploys

Smoking with myself just to feel the real
Peeling back pain I forgot to heal
Learning to love what the mirror reflects
Even the scars I used to neglect
Ain't no shame in crying in smoke
Sometimes the silence speaks what's broke
I ain't lonely I'm learning my name
Me, myself, and Mary Jane

I sparked up questions I used to dodge
Running through layers, no camouflage
That old guilt, ash in the tray
That self-hate, I'm high above the day
Still got shadows, still got flaws
But now I face them without applause

I ain't fixed, I ain't whole
But I'm higher with a little more soul
Smoking with myself just to feel the real
Peeling back pain I forgot to heal

Learning to love what the memory reflects
Even the scars I used to neglect
Ain't no shame in crying in smoke
Sometimes the silence speaks what's broke
I ain't lonely, I'm learning my name
Me, myself, and Mary Jane

Every talks a lesson every sigh's a relief
This buds my therapy, my inner peace
Ain't about runnin', I'm settlin' in
Gettin' to know me like a long-lost friend

Smoking with myself just to feel the real
Peeling back pain I forgot to heal
Learning to love what the mirror reflects
Even the scars I used to neglect

Ain't no shame in crying in smoke
Sometimes the silence speaks what's broke
I ain't lonely, I'm learning my name
Me, myself, and Mary Jane

No script, no mask, no pretend
Just sittin' here learnin' to mend
Rollin' up with love again
Me, myself, and Mary Jane