Can'T Hate You Yet

I know it's not supposed to be easy
But is it meant to be this bad?
When I speak to my friends and family
I feel stupid 'cause I gave you everything that I had
I shouldn't have adapted
I should've got out when I saw you the way that you are
Surround yourself with bad men
Cry when you become one
Shouldn't but still can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
And I know that I should be
We've never been good but
Still I can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
I can't bear a minute of silence
You kept me in them when you got mad
You made me sit and listen to my mind
When I told you it was heavy for me most of the time
No I shouldn't have adapted
I should've got out when I saw you the way that you are
Surround yourself with bad men
Cry when you become one
Shouldn't but still can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
And I know that I should be
We've never been good but
Still I can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
But I wish I did
I let you chain me with a disrespect
I wouldn't even treat my enemies with
And the worst part is
I let you tell me that you love me now
I compare everybody to whatever this is
'Cause you said you were trying
And I always been naive
I took your word because that's what I'm meant to do
Now I have to be kind
And I have to be nice
'Cause I can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet
And I know that I should be
We've never been good but
Still I can't let myself hate you yet
I, I, I really can't let myself hate you yet