I'M Not Ok

My last smile was a while ago
I can show you my fears and how wild I go
I got tattoo tears on my mind, I know
That they're really my favorite
Everything's changing

Nothing stays the same, but the heartbreak
Hole in my chest, can't see it, but it's heart-shaped, baby
Pour pain in a champagne glass, seat belt for my feelings
'Cause I know it won't last with you

I'm not okay
Excuse the screaming, I just thought you needed to know
I'm not okay
Don't you worry, I've got everything in control
I'm not okay
I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect, and that's okay
I'm hurting, and finally got the nerve to say
"I'm not o- (one, two, three) Kay"

Ten miles down a winding road
Tin roof raindrops that remind me of you
Fourteen-karat solid gold teardrops in my coffee
Look at what you cost me

And I would leave it all in a heartbeat
Found the lighter that you left in the car seat (yeah, yeah)
I'ma set fire to the whole thing
But it wouldn't do much 'cause I won't be over you

I'm not okay
Excuse the screaming, I just thought you needed to know
I'm not okay
Don't you worry, I've got everything in control
I'm not okay
I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect, and that's okay
I'm hurting, and finally got the nerve to say

Oh, whoa, I'm not okay
Oh, whoa, I'm not o-
Oh, whoa, I'm not okay
Oh, whoa, I'm not okay

Excuse the screaming, I just thought you needed to know
I'm not okay
Don't you worry, I've got everything in control
I'm not okay
I'm nervous, struggling to be perfect, and that's okay
I'm hurting, and finally got the nerve to say