Hangar

Come pick me up, I'll pay for gas
There's nowhere that I wanna be
And you'll drive fast and I won't ask to pick the music or the street
And we can talk about whatever and pretend that we won't tell
Even pretending to ourselves

You think it's easy when it's darker
And I like to feel my heart speed up with my eyes shut
And feel we're doing something we should not
So, for a time, I spend my life
Just trying to find out when to stop
Just trying to guess when we'll get caught

This place is suffocating
I'll still be here in five years
Like I promise I won't
Through the wind in your ears
And nothing feels this urgent, these nights are still important
And there's still a lot I haven't put into words yet

Every time I feel alive, it will feel just like this
I'll get the things you did
Forget the boy I kissed by the hangar
And you'll both be strangers to me

Tonight, it matters how I'm not a person who you wanna see
'Cause I like to talk about the hospital
And go when I don't need it just to show the world I feel it
I only ever did it once
It was selfish, it was fun, but I can't bring myself to

Hate me for wanting a break
I'll still be here in 5 years
Where I made every mistake
Sixteen, trying to disappear
For one week and a half, you know it's all an act
There's still a lot I haven't put into words yet

This place is suffocating
I'll still be here in 5 years
Like I promise I won't
Through the wind in your ears
And nothing feels this urgent, and these nights are still important
There's still a lot I haven't put into words yet