Internal Darkness

Sunshine, I wait for dawns recurrent light
I ponder in my narrow house and warm myself
Moonlight, calmly shines through the night
I stare at these old photographs, my heart beats fast

I find no peace to read or write
My soul is lost, my spirit's down
There's no one in the dark
My little world has lost it's light

The dim serene, I can't escape at all and my thoughts reveal
I can't forget the better days behind closed doors
I'm still confused and longing for

Behind these lowered window blinds
I'm holding back the tears and find
I think I shall never know
Why I'm like this and you are so

We all grow, what happened through the years where dreams lie still
I tried to change it all and found dreams lie dead
I can't redo it all again