Ball & Chain

I'm contemplating, reflecting on my life
I'm pondering my options and listening to advice
considering the price I've paid, observing what I've done
I'm Weighing all the pros and cons, the things I've lost and won
the race I've run, the pace I've had, the choices that I've made
The path that I've been treading on it isn't always paved
I'm well behaved, I'm not depraved, I'm reasonably sane
but the burdens that I carry are a heavy ball and chain

All of the problems I face,every scar leaves a trace
for all the faults I create, I have to carry the weight

I'm meditating, rejecting all my strife
Im focusing on positives, reducing sacrifice
The only paradise we have is what we all become
a piece of mine for peace of mind we're sharing all the crumbs
Everyone and anyone deserves a big upgrade
the wrath we've all experienced has mostly been man made
we've been betrayed, we've been portrayed as mentally insane
and misery loves company, prepare to share the pain

All of the problems I face, every scar leaves a trace
For all the faults I create, I have to carry the weight X2

I'm hesitating, I'm sceptical at best
Sometimes it feels like I'm clinically depressed
put to the test, I must confess that I'm no good with pain
am I insane to think that I could go against the grain,
can I maintain my sanity outside my comfort zone
I'm hesitant of whether I can walk the line alone
am I a clone or skin and bone, whats my given name
do I exist, is all of this a stupid fucking game.