Marionettes

Down in silence, holding onto hollow

Savior unstrung and dumb
Why do I keep thinking?
Let me have this

Let me have this, all the hidden lilies in our yard
I remember waking up in a sweat
Pearlesque gleaming, being pulled like teeth
I can see faint colors reflecting back at me

As I stare down at my hand
My birthstone, the one my anya told me was mine
Mute, I see her dark eyes

Heavy snow
Let me apply pressure now
Flowers of the abyss
Keeping out all the light
I hide from my mom
I hide