My Frustration

Where was I when god had shown 
How to make a happy home 

Lie in bed and sleep don't come 
Have some peace then give me some 
And I know the reason why you hold me down 
I won't let this fear of loss make me drown 

In my bed I lie alone 
Scrape together bone to bone 
And I can't seem to seem to find my way 
I can't seem to find the break of day 

I'll stay just a step away 

Where was I when god had shown 
How to make a happy home 
And I have become my worst enemy 
I will survive this instability 

In my bed I lie alone 
Scrape together bone to bone 
Again I have become my worst enemy 
I will survive this instability 

I need to breathe the breath of life 
You constantly drain my life 
Why can't you see the breath in me 
I constantly need your need 
My butterfly don't fly away 

If I could just take this simple breath of life from 
Me 
You couldn't take it motherfucker eternity 
If I could take this breath of life and come inside 
Of me 
You wouldn't take it, I need to breathe 

As I creep the monkey's back 
Now she's gone and oh he's back 
And I know the reason why you hold me down 
I won't let this fear of loss make me drown 

I will stay, I'll stay 
I will stay, I'll stay