Break The Pattern

I kept praying for peace in the same place I was bleeding
And that's how I knew...
It wasn't love
It was a lesson
(deep breath)
Time to choose different

I kept calling it "chemistry" (mmm)
But it was just chaos in disguise
Mistook the highs for intimacy
Now I see through the lies (whoo)
Every tear was a warning
But I stayed for the story
Thought I could fix what broke me
(But it broke me slowly)

This time I'm not folding (nah)
This time I'm not chasing
If I gotta beg for love baby
It's not worth saving
I won't shrink to be chosen
Won't bend to be kept
I'd rather be alone
Than abandon myself

I'm breaking the pattern (yeah)
I'm choosing me (ooh-yeah)
No more almosts no more dreams that leave me empty
I'm healing the habit (mmm)
Of staying too long
Baby this time I won't dim my light to belong
(Ohhh I'm done!)
I'm breaking the pattern
(I'm breaking free...)

Deleted the texts I kept rereading
Blocked the number I kept needing
Journal full of "what ifs"
Now it's full of peace
No more red flags disguised as deep
I've cried the last "please don't leave"
Now I finally breathe
Now I finally see

This time I'm not begging (nope)
This time I'm protecting
If it costs my peace then love
It's too expensive
I'm done explaining my worth
Done rehearsing the hurt
I forgave but I won't forget
What that silence taught me first

I'm breaking the pattern
I'm choosing me (yeah yeah)
No more "maybe next time"
Or "just wait and see"
I'm healing the habit
Of hoping they'll change
But I'm the one evolving babyain't that strange?

Ohhh I'm breaking the pattern
(And I ain't going back...)
No I ain't going back

Cycles don't break themselves
You have to break them
You gotta be willing to disappoint the version of you
That settled just to feel seen
Not this time
Not ever again

I'm breaking the pattern
(Yeah... ooh I'm free)
I'm choosing me (choosing me finally)
I'm healing the habit...
Of handing my heart to fear
Of waiting for someone else to care
I care now
I choose now
I glow now
I'm free now

(I break the pattern)
(I break the chain)
(I break the silence)
(I choose my name)