Ways

Lord
I know I should try a little harder
Too stuck in my
Feeling like a bother
Lately I ain't been feeling right
I'm lost inside mind and getting out's a bigger fight
Anxiety taking over my life I need to get it right
Feeling short of breath fighting to breathe as I grip the night
Looking at my son tucked in and sleeping tight
Thinking if I die tonight it's him that I'm a leave behind
Living with this fear of dying deep inside
The pressure weighing down on my chest but keep in mind
I feel a break down building up but I can't seem to cry
You know that feeling of detachment from everything even life
But yet you feel so much it ain't even right
A constant battle within but you can't squeeze between the line
Got the nerve to ask god for the answers but still I question why
Like if he says go left I wanna press the right
There's death around the corner and I feel like I'm next in line
And if I am listen
Let me testify
Lord
Forgive me for my
Ways
I know I should try a little harder, I could be a better father, be a better man to my girl but I'm caught up
And I'm
Too
Stuck
In
My
Ways
I'm feeling like a bother, why would anybody wanna be apart of, this toxicity that I brought them
Is it a late night or early morning
It's Not important
I'm feeling cornered
My Back against the wall but moving forward
I'm fighting demons now there's more of them
Anxiety kicks when I find some boredom
You see I'm tryna get my mind straight it's veering off track
See It's mind over matter and my fear is of that
That I can't cant control it
Tryna find the motive, conversation tryna spark it I lost it as the wind keeps blowing
The boat is, rocking and stopping it, not an option it's obvious I lost focus
My Confidence, is dropping, It's lost in a dark ocean
The fire burning within ironic my minds frozen
Looking for my inner peace but I'm lost inside of the moment
I'm burying myself alive
Suffocating while I'm stuck inside, lace up for the fucking ride
Fuck these laces man I'm cutting ties
No longer are the strings attached so fuck you die
But you rather go to war, like I built for this
You Try to the settle the score gon have to kill the kid, but if I die that's death to you
So if you can get the best of me I get the best of you, cock back and let it shoot bow
Lord
Forgive me for my
Ways
I know I should try a little harder, I could be a better father, be a better man for my girl but I'm caught up
And I'm
Too
Stuck
In
My
Ways
I'm feeling like a bother, why would anybody wanna be apart of, this toxicity that I brought them
I'm tryna figure out life and where I'm headed
I'm tryna get out my mind can't find the exit, anxiety keeps building it's getting depressing
All these Panic attacks are never ending
How the fuck I'm gon cope with this
Especially when I'm losing hope with this
I thought I beat before but here it goes again
Family around but feel alone and shit, I got all the drive in the world but I'm motorless
Uh
I been dealing with this feeling since a little kid, 20 plus years and it ain't subsided even a little bit
Uh
So imagine my frustration
It's keeping me complacent
Lord please come save him
He's losing it can't take it
Will I die or will I make it
I'm stepping out my body tell the devil come and face him
Uh
It's getting harder to hide it please
Help me I'm praying to the higher being
Lord
Forgive me for my
Ways
I know I should try a little harder, I could be a better father, be a better man for my girl but but I'm caught up
And I'm
Too
Stuck
In
My
Ways
I'm feeling like a bother, why would anybody wanna be apart of, this toxicity that I brought them