Circus

I wake up tired of waking up
Everyone's fine, guess that's enough

I laugh when I'm supposed to
But it doesn't feel the same

They tell me "you'll be fine someday"
But every day just feels the same
I try to speak but fade away
My voice just echoes into grey

I tried to fit in, I tried to heal
But nothing ever felt that real

I don't feel what you feel
I dont dream like you dream
I'm alive but it's twisted inside
Nothing feels real to me

I fake a laugh just to stay in the frame
Every smile feels like a game
I'm screaming quiet in a crowded room
But no one ever hears the tune

If I seem off, would you notice me?
Or write it off like it's meant to be?

I don't feel what you feel
And I'm tired of pretending I do

I don't feel what you feel
I don't dream like you dream
I'm alive but I'm breaking apart
Nothing feels real to me

Maybe I'm just built this way
Maybe I can't match their play
Nothing feels real to me