Paternal Failure

When she told me the news she had tears in her eyes
She knew I wouldn't feel the same
It wasn't part of my plan
What about my dreams?
I was a selfish man

I was pathetic
I couldn't handle the pressure
My weakness won
I couldn't keep it together

I will never forgive myself for what I've done
These dreams will always haunt me
I just wish you hadn't gone away

To the child that I'll never hold
(I'm sorry)
To my child who will never grow old
(I'm so sorry)
To your mother who will always love you
(I'm sorry)
I failed you both and I will always remember

We were to bring a life into this world
But how could we when our own lives had withered?
How could I make another person like me?
To make a life like this would be a fucking tragedy

But when you went away another part of me died
I'd never see you
I'd never hear you
I'd never touch or even be near you

To the child that I'll never hold
(I'm sorry)
To my child who will never grow old
(I'm so sorry)
To your mother who will always love you
(I'm sorry)
I failed you both and I will always remember

I'm so sorry
I'm sorry

If there's a life after death, I hope you found it
I hope to see you there someday
If there's a life after death, I hope you found it
But I know we won't end up in the same place
Oh God!

Paternal failure at best
With your passing went the last of our passion
Our lives together were all but lost