Emotional Damage

Now and then
I get a glimpse of it and I pretend
I couldn't live with it, I'm on the mend
But I'm gonna tear myself apart again
I confess
I wanna feel something
Inside my chest
Instead of this sorrow I've invited in
I wanna be happy, see the light again

But I never had that
I've made it a habit
Bad habit of chasing heights I'll never reach
But you don't notice me, oh have I made it a habit
Emotional damage
I've made it a habit
Emotional damage

I wake up, full of love, with a smile on my face
Made that up, call my bluff, it's enough, but it's fake
Chasing dreams, but they feel like a nightmare at times
I'm a sad one I can't let my happiness shine
I coulda been happy, coulda been laughing, yeah, but the fact is I took a path that didn't allow me
To be a man that could take a crack, because if I crack then I break, can't when that half of you woudn't have had me as a martyr
To deliver the pain that I harbor
And it's killin' me off, I wanna get away from it and depart it

But I'll never that
I've made it a habit
A habit of changing heights I'll never reach
But you don't notice me, oh have I made it a habit?
Emotional damage
I made it a habit
Emotional damage