Monsters

Feels so very strange
That it could be this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue

Look
Is it okay to feel like running away for
Days 'til somebody wanna say something?
Huh
Is it okay to feel shitty and overwhelmed
By everything and anything coming?
Is it okay to feel like I'm not quite okay?
I've been feeling pain, make it go away
Sleep is my escape, dreaming it up to
Wake up and find I really mean nothing

I made the assumption that monsters ain't under my bed
And it took me a minute to realize they're in my head
And they're giving me panic attacks and anxiety, I'm seeing red
I'm really just fed up, it feels like I'm living in hell
And I'm walking around like I'm dead 'cause my face is just lifeless
I'm fighting for everyone, never will
I be fought for in the end, I need
A little bit of happiness, why am I so
Inadequate? Demons I'm always battling, damn

They always be attacking shit and I ain't really having it
I'm always on my saddest shit, damn

I'm a motherfucking addict, I don't mean to be dramatic
No one ever really had or gave a damn

The love that they be giving me a scam, goddamn
Come and watch me pop another fucking Xan, shit

Feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue

I feel so blue, I always lose

I be steady tripping, gotta tie my shoes
When I need you, you respond so slow
When you need me, I'm in the car like Pro though

I don't like to talk because I'm antisocial

You already know though, zero friends in total

I don't even smile in the motherfucking
Photos that I post on the 'Gram
'Cause I don't give a damn about shit now
I could fucking disappear and everybody lit now
I'ma sit down, take a hit now
Every now and then I take a motherfucking sip now
Get it, pal, bump a little TJ

Crying in the club on my goddamn b-day
Drive too fast on the goddamn freeway
Heart is up for sale so I put it on eBay
He say, she say they all fucking monsters
They say they your friends but they always imposters
The only way that I'ma prosper is with zero friends on my roster
Someone call a doctor, my flow's too sick

I'm off topic, sucker for pain, but I got logic
When fake people wanna hop on my dick
And they stab my back and they talk they shit
And they talk they crap, I just take they hits, damn

Feels so very strange
That it could feel this way
Now I'm so afraid
Why won't you stay?
Did you ever love me
The way that I loved you?
This negativity
Keeps me feeling blue

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