Numb, Pt. 2 (Feat. Rell)

You know, uh
Gotta feel me
Come from what I come from, uh
You gotta, gotta feel me, uh (High-High-High Honors)

I made it out the trenches, where's its hardly options (hardly)
Sell a drug, play ball, or get the party rockin' (rockin')
Look, I think I'm Money May' if niggas talkin' boxin' (what's up)
Porsche boxster, it wasn't overnight, it's all a process (skrrt)
Navy Blue Huaraches, dinner, it was shrimp and broccoli (I remember)
Bernard had the spot then, we used to sip Karasi (my nigga)
I called him Allan Houston, chosen few influence
Smokin' out the spot, the back polluted, I attracted jewelers (I did)
Raffaello first, and then it was Elliott (yeah)
You couldn't tell me shit, I'm drinkin' liquor you'll never sip (never)
Disregarded niggas that had it, pumped on whoever strip (whoever)
Banana peels and oil on the pavement, shit, I ain't never slip (not me)
Watch bitches take everything off, said they would never strip
Advice you tryin' to give me? I don't know 'cause you was never rich (don't know)
Don't get caught at the light with your cousin on some Harold shit (boom)
Billie Holiday when she noddin', I'm talkin' heroin (dog)
Smoothest nigga rappin', my fabric probably velour (smooth)
Or silk or somethin', just mind your business, don't get killed or somethin' (don't get killed)
I'm built for hustlin', real estate, I'm tryin' to flip construction (flip)
If she ain't bringin' back new paper, you ain't pimpin' nothin' (nada)
Them blessings might not never come 'cause you ain't been through nothin' (nothin')
Losses, I took 'em on the chin, I gotta win for somethin' (somethin')
My heart was damaged as a youngin', I could feel it crushin' (fourteen)
Touched too many niggas in caskets and wasn't feelin' nothin'

I'm still numb (uh)
Mama askin' me, where the fuck you get them pills from?
Homies dyin', got tired of cryin', that's my real thun
Left the wake and broke into pieces, he was real young
Twenty somethin', I can't believe it, shit, I'm still numb (numb)
See your picture and try to smile, shit, I'm still numb
I ain't felt nothin' in a while, shit, I'm still numb
You ain't even get to meet my child, now I feel dumb (damn)
We was just them niggas with no crowd, I'm still numb

I'm just thinkin' 'bout the nights when everything was right
How we go from catchin' flights to me rappin' 'bout your life? Yeah, I'm numb (I'm numb)
I might drop a tear alone at night, yeah, I'm numb
At least if you was locked, I'd send a kite, yeah, I'm numb
Thinkin' 'bout the nights when everything was right
How we go from catchin' flights to me rappin' 'bout your life? Yeah, I'm numb
I might drop a tear alone at night, yeah, I'm numb
At least if you was locked, I'd send a kite, yeah, I'm numb

We can talk about strength
'Cause I was forced to swim through lies to get the truth about things
We can talk about pain
'Cause I lost so much, I can't cry 'cause no tears remain
So unlike a lot of names, R-E-double-L
I can tell you about the game, been affiliated
Been hood celebrated
I got my rep from bein' known to facilitate it
I was drawn to the hustle from my young days
Leveled up to a plug and a mediator
Hit a fork in the road, had to switch lanes
Shit started goin' left, so I chose finesse
I was face down when the heat came (get down)
Don't make a fuckin' move, all they kept sayin' (don't fuckin' move)
Had my mama pissed off with the whole thing
"Soon as my baby in cuffs, now they play your songs"
They know his name, so we can talk about the hate (let's go there)
But someone 'round my way thought I would cooperate (let's go there)
But now they understand that ain't how I operate (never)
Back to the game, now I'm Grammy nominated (nah-nah-nah-nah)
Consigliere, I'm a real-life Tom Hagen
I merge real rap to your radio stations
Dave East and Rell, no contemplatin'
We're gonna ride, no hesitatin' 'cause we're numb

I'm still numb (uh)
Mama askin' me, where the fuck you get them pills from?
Homies dyin', got tired of cryin', that's my real thun
Left the wake and broke into pieces, he was real young
Twenty somethin', I can't believe it, shit, I'm still numb (numb)
See your picture and try to smile, shit, I'm still numb
I ain't felt nothin' in a while, shit, I'm still numb
You ain't even get to meet my child, now I feel dumb
We was just them niggas with no crowd, I'm still numb