Molotov (La La La)

Got a lot on my mind, can't let it go
Still got a lot that I want, Imma get it though
Right now I'm at the pinnacle
And they always wanna say it gets better someday, I'm a cynic tho
Turned cold, need a winter coat
I'm a living ghost
Tried, but I never once fit the mold
Lost the map, I'm never getting home
Don't give me hope, just
Lay low, integrate a payflow
Only way they get paid, taking out a bank loan
Lot of fakes, never entertain those
Drake clones
I'm original, cover stay blown
I'm a king, so they call me pharoah
And the girls still going feral
At your throat like a chain smoke
And I came from the dirt like a gravestone
Here to ruin your day
This what I learned, isn't how I was raised
Blue in the face
Making you swerve, you can stay out of my way
Angel on my shoulder
Didn't change when I got older
And he thinks he's taking over
Told him bye, wasn't great to know ya

I say la la la
As if everything was okay
Watch me sabotage
Everything doing great
I got a molotov
If you wanna get in the way
My inhibitions are fighting to keep me sane

If I'm in control
Then why can't I get up and go?
Am I at the end of my rope
Or just getting sat at the edge of my throne?
Don't agree with the witch
She tell me to follow the yellow brick road
My life is a movie but I never know when the credits'll roll
Still waiting on a miracle though
Other side greener grass, but it's miracle-gro
Sometimes can't tell if I'm steering the boat
Or left dead in the water, and barely keeping afloat
Villian of the story
Think it's better for me
Tried to be the hero
That was getting boring
Let the plot thicken
Let the anger build
So I can let it out
Whenever I'm recording
Showing up is like half the battle
But it turned me bitter, filled me up on ammo
Old self, left in the gallows
Somehow still caught living in his shadow

I say la la la
As if everything was okay
Watch me sabotage
Everything doing great
I got a molotov
If you wanna get in the way
My inhibitions are fighting to keep me sane

Showed love but they ain't once reciprocate it
Matter fact got manipulated
Spit on, backstabbed, and humiliated
Friendliness level got dissipated
I feel the hate
Don't think it's better to push you away
I know it's wrong
Mouth has been taped
Holding my tongue
The words still escape

I say la la la
As if everything was okay
Watch me sabotage
Everything doing great
I got a molotov
If you wanna get in the way
My inhibitions are fighting to keep me sane