Pity Party

I'm the antagonist no need for an adversary
Mindstate is just taking a trip
Negativity is so unnecessary
If it's going well
Then I shouldn't mention
Or the universe will choose not to spare me
If the road to hell is
Paved with good intentions
It'll put more knives in
Your back than Carrie but I'm cool with it
Even though I start to wonder
Walking with a bottle
Hope to catch some thunder
Is it really love or a hex I'm under?
Welcome to the pity party
No one else is sorry tried not to laugh
My dearly departed
Quit sleeping sideways and watch your back
Never one for luck, it's a new record
Every time I leave the house
Is a new adventure
Just totaled my car and it drew attention
Always gotta be down for a rude awakening
The new dog is full of old tricks
Hard to tell what's been making
The world revolve quick go tick
Hard to move on the gravel with no grip
Don't trip
So cold it's making your nose drip
Fill an ocean dark and gloomy
That's where my thoughts are blooming
Anyone is beautiful under the right light
I just live inside a void
Only seeing the night sky
But the moon isn't dark
It's the sun's reflection
Not lonely, just need the introspection
Couple dozen regrets, what a dumb collection
Spending too much time heading
The wrong direction

Let's break it down
The grass is green but I'm black with envy
It's a game of Tetris every odd is a block
That's stacked against me
They don't like the dark music I make
I got a stormcloud coming
About to rain on your parade

Welcome to the pity party
Where nobody else is sorry
It's not dark, it's a new light
No sun, but a blue sky
Welcome to the pity party
We're only getting started
Maybe I don't fit the role that I play
But who wrote the script? I just changed it

I don't wave bye to my enemies
We don't see eye to eye anyways
Always know that I'm seeing them again
Feels like I count on them
More than my friends
I reveal my truth like everyday
They want me to die like Kennedy
Another product of corrupt disease
I'm the poster child
Just look up the meaning so I keep to myself
Taking a knee when I weep in my cell
The sleet is developing
I don't sleep with umbrellas
When I'm need of the water cause
I've been under a dry spell
Wanna put me down
I got a reason to celebrate
If they don't want me around
I gotta think of a better way
They define me by melanin
But my skin is irrelevant
Your opinion is delicate
I see under the white veil

Let's break it down
The grass is green but I'm black with envy
It's a game of Tetris every odd is a block
That's stacked against me
They don't like the dark music I make
I got a stormcloud coming
About to rain on your parade

Welcome to the pity party
Where nobody else is sorry
It's not dark, it's a new light
No sun, but a blue sky
Welcome to the pity party
We're only getting started
Maybe I don't fit the role that I play
But who wrote the script? I just changed it
Welcome to the pity party
Where nobody else is sorry it's not bark
It's a new bite tiptoeing in the moonlight
Welcome to the pity party
Where nobody else is sorry
Maybe I don't fit the shoes that I made
And what size are you if we traded?