Tidal Wave

It's been a long day
Please no one talk to me
If I ain't seen you in a minute
Don't even bother
I see you got your hands out
But got nothing to offer me
Just know that I've been crossing my
I's and I dot my T's
I'm really going through this
I've been reaching out
I know one day the score will even out
No one believes me now
Since I was little kid I've been
Aiming higher than I can reach
And finding everything's just a bit
Bigger than what it seems
What if it don't ever end
Am I optimistic or malevolent?
Yeah "never settle" is thе regimen
Give mе 4 words that I've never said
"Guess I'll accept it" devil's knocking
My note to God must've never sent
That door was locked someone let him in
That door was locked, someone

I went and crashed my car the other day
Homies telling me to turn my head
And look the other way
But the water's getting high and
I'm about to suffocate
I don't want an early grave
Here comes the tidal wave

Back in fight mode gotta last the night
Give me half the knife
Let it pass through my bone
Asleep at the wheel when I'm passing five-o
Missed my turn, I just passed the high road
Heart racing, let me check the vitals
So sick of sitting idle
Swear to god I'm not suicidal
Mind over matter
Always swore that I'd break the pattern
Got no time for no social ladder
Can't be upset if I don't know about it
I don't exist if I don't post about it
I don't know where I would go without it
Levitating, looking for balance

I went and crashed my car the other day
Homies telling me to turn my head
And look the other way
But the water's getting high and
I'm about to suffocate
I don't want an early grave
Here comes the tidal wave

Lately people only hit me for favors
Friendly messages
Then find a way to slip it in conversation
Simple things became complicated
Now I'm so overwhelmed to the
Point I lose motivation
This ship is sinking, just hit the glacier
Never leave my bed, I think sleep is safer
Tryna lift the pen, it don't leave the paper
Wanna meet a friend that don't need a favor
Keep writing, it keeps piling
Declining, thoughts keep rioting
Lot's of y'all are fake and keep quiet
This car's about to break from steep mileage

I went and crashed my car the other day
Homies telling me to turn my head
And look the other way
But the water's getting high and
I'm about to suffocate
I don't want an early grave
Here comes the tidal wave