Summoning

Sitting, waiting
Decision, making
Holding, trying
My bodies fighting
Big fat I don't wanna see her folding again

And when I crash I bet I'll burn out
And I ain't coming back from what I turned out

Enticed by pure as ice
Death tax, wont get it back
So torn, family on the phone
Last hope to spend my life alone

Ducking, crawling
Bending, falling
Surface, fever
Bottom, trawling
Big fat I don't wanna see her straying from that

Stop, please, not beside of me
Can't breathe wanna make believe
God please end my suffering
Brace me for the summoning
Want mom, she can get us out
Dad said she's the leader now
Nine years till I'm out the house
Can't take stayin' anyhow