How To Live

Did I fog the lens
With crying eyes?
Did I get undressed
To drop the disguise?
Trade common sin
For common sense
A life undone
In heaps of regret

Baby bird
My cult of one
You're getting thin
My prodigal son
So I count my stones
Before they're laid
Like the architects of ancient Pompeii

I know too much, it's freaking me out
But there's gold under the rust
Figuring out just how to live
I'm so afraid you're finding me out
But there's something in the rough
Figuring out just how to live

I made a little money, but it's never enough
She'll tell me that she want me, but it's still ain't enough
My neighbour's gettin' naughty, and it's keeping me up
There's no God above me, and it's fuckin' me up
She came into the lobby, eyes lookin' for love
She don't know that I've had another honey for months
And I'm a man with a thimble fighting a flood
Still figuring out how to live

Monday comes
I'm ashamed
From throwing crumbs
At the funeral parade
I can't sleep
I'm losing face
I'm so much older
Than my age

I can't sleep
Waste my days
I'm so much older
Than I can take

Oh, I know too much, it's freaking me out
But there's gold under the rust
Figuring out just how to live
I'm so afraid you're finding me out
But there's something in the rough
Figuring out just how to live

I made a little money, but it's never enough
She'll tell me that she want me, but it's still ain't enough
My neighbour's gettin' naughty, and it's keeping me up
There's no God above me, and it's fuckin' me up
She came into the lobby, eyes lookin' for love
She don't know that I've had another honey for months
And I'm a man with a thimble fighting a flood
Still figuring out how to live

And I always play the victim
Though I'll tell myself I don't
Mister casual and flippant
He's ashamed to be alone
And I'm no stranger to the distance
But I'm missing her bad
And I'm up at night and wishing
It could be simple as that

I know too much, it's freaking me out
But there's gold under the rust
Figuring out just how to live
I'm so afraid you're finding me out
But there's something in the rough
Figuring out just how to live