Butterflies

(Wow, Demxntia) yeah

Let's take it back
Back to the days where
Not a thing would matter
Not a care within' the world
Wasn't really thinkin' 'bout her
But my eyes are feelin' heavy
Like the weight that's on my chest
'Cause lately, I been feelin' empty
But you should know that best

There's a void within' my chest
But my mind full
Next time I wanna get attached
I'll be mindful
Instead of walkin' on a tightrope
With a blindfold and expecting not to fall into this
Everlasting cycle

And I swear this is déjà vu
'Cause I know I wrote at least a hundred songs just about you
I know I probably shouldn't want you
But you help me take my mind off
All the things that I been through

Stuck reminiscing 'bout the times that we had
(Thinking about the times that I made you laugh)
Stuck reminiscing 'bout the times we shared
(Every time I close my eyes, I see you there)

Every time I hear your voice, it gives me butterflies
Tryna hide the fact that I get anxious when I look into your eyes
And I tell myself these lies
That I hope that you never hear
The lies that I was writin' when I was missing you, my dear

Now, lying wide awake, I wonder why I feel this way
This empty heart gets colder almost every single day
I've been staring at these four white walls
Like, do I mean a thing to you at all?

So take away my ability to feel
Because I'd rather numb my senses
Than feeling something that ain't real
But every night my heart is sinking
Or maybe I'm just overthinking
And I'm not so sure

Maybe I'm just wasting all my time
'Cause every time we cease communication
I feel so confined
And every night I think of you
I wonder if you feel the same way that I do

Every night I think of you
I wonder if you feel the same way that I do