Denial Is A River

Hey, I thought it was all over
What's up, Doechii?
Hey, girl
You know, it's been a lil' minute since you and I have had a chat?
Has it really?
Probably since, like, your last EP, Oh The Places You'll Go
Oh, wow, it's been a minute, yeah?
I've been gettin' some calls, people are a little bit worried about you
Not worried, okay
And I know that was kinda that outlet for you, so
You were
Why don't you just tell me what's been goin' on?
Okay

Remember old dude from 2019?
Nice clean nigga, did me dirtier than laundry (than laundry)
Took a scroll through his IG
Just to get a DM from his wifey? (What the fuck?)
I was so confused, what should Doechii do?
She didn't know about me and I didn't know 'bout Sue
I opened up the messages then had to hit the zoom
Turns out the girl was really a dude? (Goddamn)
Nigga think he slicked back 'til I slipped back
Got my lick back, turned a nigga to a knick-knack (to a knick-knack)
I moved on, dropped a couple of songs
And then I went and got signed, that was 2021

Okay, I just feel like this is the perfect opportunity
For us to just take a second and kind of unpack what's happened to you
You know, this guy cheated on you and-
Mm, nah, (oh) fuck it

Platinum record this, viral record that
I'm makin' so much money, I'm all over the 'net
I'm movin' so fast, no time to process
And no, I'm not in a gang, but I'm always on set
Wrist watch, drip drop, label want the TikToks
Now I'm makin' TikTok music, what the fuck?
I need a cleanse, need a detox
But we ain't got time to stop, the charts needs us (and they do)
Fast forward me, 2023
I'm stackin' lots of cheese and makin' money
My grass is really green and

Honestly, I can't even fucking cap no more
This is a really dark time for me
I'm goin' through a lot
By a lot, you mean drugs?
Um, I wouldn't-
Drugs?
No, it's a- (no?) it's a natural plant
No, I'm not judging
I'm not an addict
I'm just saying
I don't think-
You wanna talk about it?
Uh

I mean, fuck, I like pills, I like drugs
I like gettin' money
I like strippers, I like to fuck
I like day drinkin' and day parties in Hollywood
I like doin' Hollywood shit, snort it, probably would
What can I say? The shit works, it feels good
And my self-worth's at an all time low
And just when it couldn't get worse
My ex crashed my place and destroyed all I owned
Whoopsie, made a oopsie
One hunnid thousand dollar "oops" made me loopy
I ain't a killer, but don't push me
Don't wanna have to turn a nigga guts into soup beans

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Rurr
Okay, Doechii, we don't wanna revert back into (sorry) our old ways
Okay
So, we're gonna try a breathing exercise, okay?
Alright, word
When I breathe, (okay) you breathe
Alright? Let's go
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Woo-sah