Nitrogen Narcosis

Here I am
Chasing for
Something again
Can't quite find it

If I'd have known before
Those feelings would run cold
I never would have swum
To the paths of your unknown
No
Look at the face of me
I've fallen from grace
It seems
From your expectation of
From who I pretend to be
So hard on myself
I can't find anything else
I've been stripped clean to the bone
I've been so fucked up and cold

But I can't be
Everything you need
I've been trying
To save me
Now I can't breathe
I've been on my knees
Drowning and thrashing and lonely

Here I am
Chasing for
Something again
Can't quite find it
Fear's last stand
Rushing towards
The bottom of my
Cold grey hands