Don'T Cry

My anxiety it kills me I feel this
My depression really something hard to deal with
Got this hate in my heart, I don't know why
It'll tear me apart, but I don't cry
If you love me, then why the fuck it don't show?
Every star gon' shine but I don't glow

And it's telling me don't fold
But what they don't know is I don't wanna live no more
I just wanna feel better but I can't relax
Still living in the past and I'm looking back

All the times I was low, didn't know where to go
Thought I really had love but my heart really broke
Drowning in my sorrows I could die tomorrow feel hollow unapologetic
I've been sick inside my head, I need a medic

I'm just tired of thinking about the things that I'm regretting
Therapy don't work, and the pills don't work and nobody understands my emotions
Truth is I don't wanna face it, I was stuck in my basement
Heart rate saying gave it hole and my heart torn apart now
I don't know where to start now

Everybody starts off as an angel
Everybody starts sinning when the pain grows
Why the fuck I'm feeling like my life a tragedy?
When I talk about it, everybody mad at me

Blade to my skin I can feel the rush
Run away, I've been smoking on the blunts
I'm a sinner, that's just something that I had to be
I'd be running 'cause them demons coming after me
Pray to god but he never wanna answer me
I just wanna live happily, true