If I Died 2Day

If I died today
They would never even notice me
Demons always be controlling me
Always trynna get a hold of me
You would never even know it's me
Writing a rhyme like a poet be
Making amends so you know it be
Real everynight I be flowing see
Mind over matter but what is the matter
Life is a book I ain't skipping a chapter
Imagine the people that doubted me after
I make it big who the fuck would be after 
Afterwards memorize the words 
Open my eyes but the lines are blurred
Grinding like I'm on a fucking board
Mic and a Mac and I press record

Rapping is my outlet 
I'm charged up like drake
Struggle trynna make a meek milly
Big dreams in a small city

Can't get you outta my head inception
Using my pen as a fucking weapon
Words cutting deep but they my confession
Burning my soul now it's Armageddon 

Hear the piano my pen on my pad
Fearing the devil he coming in fast 
Trynna get better my life is vendetta
Bars going over your head like a header 
Dopamine filling my head I be bored
Wanna get bigger but what is it for
Is it the fame is it money or tours
Heart is in pain but I'm holding on yours 

Sometimes I think I go too deep 
Too deep
If I should die today fame ain't about to save me from this pain that I keep
It's too deep
Too deep

So many days man I just wanna die
You never tell when you look in my eyes
Rapping away but I'm feeling demise
Enemies coming it filling my mind
Hoping your life would be different than mine
Just wanna blow maybe step on mine
Nobody knows but I'm high off a line 

Feeling depressed why the fuck I be stressed
Chasing a comma I know that I'm next 
Like I'm in prison I'm serving a sentence
Question Mark everything just like I'm X
When I be rapping I feel like I'm X
All of this pain that be deep in my chest
Playing this game but I know that I'm next
Slaving away cuz I just want a check

Telling my momma one day ima make it
And I know that she feel like I just be faking but ima stay down on my grind and patient 
I'm making mistakes and I'm just like you Dtrue

Making mistakes
Even tho I got the drive 
I'm never taking a break 
What does it take
How many takes till I'm breaking I'm shaking my demons but everyday feeling a way
What does it feel like to feel like you happy inside I just wanna know why 
I be feeling like dying I'm trying Im thinking bout promises broken 
I'm lying about everything now I'm flying away 

Sometimes I think I go too deep 
Too deep
If I should die today fame ain't about to save me from this pain that I keep
It's too deep
Too deep