Power Is An Afrodisiac~???

Hello guys
My name is Emmanuel Buachie here
And I'm doing something, a little different
In summer '21
I almost hopped off a bridge
And I never knew why until pretty recently
Substance abuse, neglect from those all around me
And just a lack of self-control in a new repeating loop
I put myself in
But I remember calling Isaiah "Salem Mclaren" Kindle
Before I was about to do it
And the homie picked up
I forgot what they said at thе moment
I was pretty fried
But I felt seen by an angel, no begging
Just really perceived
Heard
Felt
The screen that didn't give back
But it was fantastic
As I dispelled the illusion from the passive
Oh God, I, I—
Oh God, I, I—

I spent so many years learning what the hell I wasn't
The cycles of emotional shame done really stunted
My drive home 'cause the engine really really flooded
So I took a long walk, narrow path, I run it
Memories flashing back to when I was nothing
Circlejerk, but there ain't no coming
You say that you love, but you really fumbling
Now you looking for another me, ain't that something?
Used to hate my masculinity
Was I toxic or too weak? Couldn't think
Dysmorphic, face and body not in sync
I want me back within my peace
Where's the in-between in a sea of thieves?
Rare to get a breather while you in the streets
Power dynamics, an illusion that you eat
Autonomy back, 'cause I'm out yo needs

That power is messy
Goes to the head real quickly
One day, you're flexing
Another day, you're tripping
That power is sexy
Goes to the head real quickly
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
That power is messy
Goes to the head real quickly (it's messy, it's messy)
One day, you're flexing
Another day, you're tripping (it's messy, it's messy)
That power is sexy
Goes to the head real quickly (it's sexy, it's sexy)
Aphrodite (ah, naw)
Aphrodite (uh, uh)
Aphrodite (ah, ah)
Aphrodite (okay)

Witness
You only come back when it's business
Fixing
For a couple of stacks, get you different
Industry backing you for a moment (ayy!)
Once they strip your talent, who you holding? (ayy!)
The screens in the hand that got you soulless?
Dog whistling all through your joking?
All them calls, I already told ya
Old money suits finna bleed you broken
Whatcha heard?
I do this on my own terms
Get a gatekeeper
Burn 'em like a Mike perm
I put in the work
The music for the kids
Hope that ego hurt
When you see my hits
I do this for my momma in the crib
Get her out the grave shifts
And my patnas in the pits
Still selling weed bricks
You ain't the God over me
I need authority
Power has no warranty, ah

That power is messy
Goes to the head real quickly
One day, you're flexing
Another day, you're tripping
That power is sexy
Goes to the head real quickly
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
That power is messy (it's so messy)
Goes to the head real quickly (it's messy, it's messy)
One day, you're flexing
Another day, you're tripping (it's messy, it's messy)
That power is sexy (hey)
Goes to the head real quickly (it's so sexy, it's sexy, it's sexy)
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
Aphrodite
Aphrodite

I don't know whether I should punch it in
Or do a one take
Um, verse three

Back when I was still in the hood 'fore it got gentrified
And some homies used to trap as they own 9 to 5
Some dead, in a jail, go ghost, love a crime
So I had nothing else, homebody with no life
All I had deep down was the music that I write
Then I met a couple kids on a screen, thought I liked
Similar stories, ambitious in my eyes
Words ain't add up, nor the actions in time
I tried to fill the gaps, Dapper Dan
Bad communication messing up these manners, man
Now I move with the season like a nomad
There ain't nothing all up in this dyad
Why did I stay with potential for so long
Turn docile through the hit of a bong
Love turn contempt through these songs
Now the chapter been gone, uh