Happy

Looking through old photo albums and I don't know why
I can't explain the feeling, but it always makes me cry

And I'm trying my best to remember a time I wasn't sad
Of course I got happy memories, but I can't say that the good outweighs the bad
The good outweighs the bad

And it's hard to admit
That I still wanna die sometimes
And it makes me feel like shit
That I'm not glad to be alive

And you call me dramatic
But I'm not looking for your sympathy
It's just the way it is
You know I wish that I could be happy