Im Not Okay

There's no escape
Feel like, there's no escape
Feel like, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay

Growin' up, I was molested, by someone I trusted
Growin' up, I never thought I was nothin'
Always wishin' I was someone, I wasn't
Until, the day that I woke up, and discovered
That I am amazing
Yesterday, I just had a conversation
With someone, that inspired me to make this
I told myself, I wasn't gonna create this

I fucking hated myself
Every time I look inside of the mirror
Like, I was afraid of myself
Because, I was different
I didn't know what to do
Every time that I was talkin' with somebody new
I felt like they were judgin' me, too
I never learned how to deal with the stress, in my life
So, I learned to step in the booth

I didn't know how to deal with these insecurities
I've been dealin' with this immaturity
Yeah, I've been lookin' for the security
I never got, as a kid
I was tryna protect my own little brother
From it, dealin' with all of the shit, that I did
'Cause, I went through a lot
Fuck, I went through a lot

So, I never told anybody
I never showed anybody, the scars
I didn't know where to start
So, I'm 'onna start from the heart
Fuck, I know, this is hard
Right now, I'm alone, in the dark
Sitting alone, in my car
I wanna help everybody that's dealin' with this
Like, I'm dealin' with this
So, I made 'em this song

I feel like there's no escape
No, there's no escape
Feel like, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay

And, yeah, there's no escape
Feel like, there's no escape
Feel like, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay

Growin' up, I was molested, by someone I trusted
Growin' up, I never thought I was nothin'
Always wishin' I was someone, I wasn't
Until the day, that I woke up and discovered
That I am amazing
Yesterday, I just had a conversation
With someone that inspired me, to make this
I told myself, I wasn't gonna create this

Then, I thought
About everyone, that was dealin' with
All of the shit, I was dealin' with
I was afraid, I was gonna be judged
So, I never told anyone, I was dealin' with anything
Yeah, I'm always energetic, never been pathetic
Plus, I never put myself first, yeah
I guess, that I never learned my own self worth, fuck
Because, I was raped, yeah, I was eight
What was his name? I don't wanna say
But, ever since then, I've been runnin' away
Or maybe, I'm just fuckin' runnin' in place

Regardless
It feels like a weight has been lifted up, off of my chest
To tell everyone, the reason I'm depressed
The reason I'm stressed
I'm takin' this off of my bucket list
I'm hopin' this helps somebody that I've never met
'Cause, music has got me through a lot
Yeah, and I'm willin' to make a bet
That it's gonna help you, too
I'm hopin' it gets you through whatever you're dealing with
I want you to know, there's a light, at the end of the tunnel
Whatever you're dealin' with
It'll be okay

I feel like, there's no escape
No, there's no escape
Feel like, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay

And, yeah, there's no escape
Feel like, there's no escape
Feel like, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay

Feel like, there's no escape
Yeah, there's no escape
I was so afraid
I was so afraid
I was so afraid
Feel like, there's no escape
Yeah, there's no escape
It'll be okay
It'll be okay
It'll be okay
There's no escape
Feel like, there's no escape
Feel like, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay
No, I'm not okay