Friendly Fire

Look, I'm just a crook
In this den, den of thieves
I stay when others won't
I come in, when others leave
For those who don't believe
I came in, with a grin
And got a quick-kick
To the shins
Guess it's always been
Always gonna be, just
Me versus me
I'm my only friend
I'm my worst enemy
Yes, in this chest
Lives the heart of a fighter
So ready to go bat shit
Light fire, to anybody I fight
Any match, like it's a matchstick
Versus a lighter
Might take that shit
Light this whole place on fire
Incinerate and feel it innervate
What's the verdict
What's the word? Shit
I guess I'm too, introverted
Might reach the sky-or
Be the solo in a choir
See my face, I look tired
Lines I trace, like a wire
You know mine has
Always been a face
I, myself, could not admire
In the mirror
So I break the glass
And see clear, or
Seeing past the past
It comes back at last
To just, the last line
I left, on the page
I feel stuck
Feel like a pin cushion
With this pen-pushin'
I rage, but I'll be ok
Guess I came to that age
Where I could come in
With, just a pen
And begin

Came without a win
Restless, itchy skin
Itching to, go again
And again
And again

Restless, let's just
Go again
And again
And again
I gotta go again
Here I go, I'm goin' in
And again
And again

Silence feels like detoxing
Spittin' mad, sounds like
Beat boxin'
Violence is like OxyContin
It's always to myself
I been talkin
When I come in
With the one-two
It's myself I am sockin'
I offend a little too-often
Just past too-far's
Where I am stoppin
When I'm alone, shit
I look at myself
My opponent
Fists flying, tell em
"Quit crying
And own it"
Then fight like
Two dogs at a bone, it
Is just me, fighting me
Caught in this moment
Old enemies, in good company
All alone, it
Smells like victory
That's the best cologne, shit
Tired of the friendly-fire
Tired, but
Never gonna condone
Saying goodbye, or
Aiming less-high
Nor would I
Ever think of quittin'
Make you bitches listen
Welcome to my dimension
And I forgot to mention
I brought you in
Without consent, in
Instances aforementioned
I will fire on my own side
If a moment ever goes by
When I come in, and spit
With no commitment
Malignant
But, my self-abuse
Does got some-kinda use
Contingent
On being consistently
An assistant to me
With the shit I'm doing
Insufficiently
Persistently
Fighting with myself
Our worst foes
Are always those
In our own minds
Inner demons
These behemoths
That we fight all the time
Isn't it always those
Nonexistent assailants
That most terrify
And out-scale us
Tell my self
"Please don't fail us"
Say a silent prayer, just
Wanna be the best, but
I just beat my chest, what
Drag my feet, then step up
Like I got this fire under me
I gotta fess up
To the fight in me
But I am gonna be the best, cuz
I won't accept less from me

Second-wind, indeed
I'm being my own friend
Guess what?
I think we can win!
Step up!

Let's just go again
And again
And again
If we mess up
Let's just go again
And again
And again

Chin up
On my way to the win
But first I gotta go again
And again
And again
And I'm still goin' in
Saying, let's just go again
(Go again, go again)