Why Am I Not Better
Ethan Jewell
3:24I've been stuck in a bad place for quite some time now Not the kind of place where you cry sometimes And you take deep breaths The kind of place where your eyes have a permanent layer of fog covering them The kind of place where your friends worry, and you worry too So I tell myself it's all in my head Well, of course it's all in my head, that's the problem I can't solve it by moving Or cutting my hair Or tracing my skin Or flattening my heart out with a rolling pin Or destroying myself with art, painting blood red It's all in my head It's all in my head It's all in my head It's this bad place The kind of place where you look at your reflection And then you buy a new reflection Because you can't recognize the other one The kind of place where home isn't a word Where home is a concept that you don't understand Maybe if you wander until your feet blister you'll feel comfortable It's a bad place I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy So truly, I wouldn't wish this on myself It's a bad place