Date With Death

I'm stuck in December in the middle of June
That broken heart weather hit's different when you
Feel that you're over them pretending it's true
But you're not ever sober and those pills are proof

I'm in hell for heaven's sake
Nothing to lose but I can give up breathing
I'm losing grip as I'm losing faith
Never seen a God but I've seen my demons

I'm lost in my own thoughts
I've got a date with death and my life's the cost
I'm lost in my own thoughts
I've got a date with death and my life's the cost
I know heaven's got a stairway
But that climb is where I fell
Emotions block my airways as I try to hang myself
I'm not sure what all I'm needing
Only time and praise will tell
But what I know is I'm all alone on this highway to hell

My mental health is a fucking mess
Every pill I take just numbs the chest
But in that moment just for a second
I feel I'm normal and at my best
But as soon as that all fades
Reality hits like a fucking train
I am not okay no I am not okay
What the fuck is left to say

I'm in hell for heaven's sake
Nothing to lose but I can give up breathing
I'm losing grip as I'm losing faith
Never seen a God but I've seen my demons

I'm lost in my own thoughts
I've got a date with death and my life's the cost
I'm lost in my own thoughts
I've got a date with death and my life's the cost
I know heaven's got a stairway
But that climb is where I fell
Emotions block my airways
As I try to hang myself
I'm not sure what all I'm needing
Only time and prayers will tell
But what I know is I'm all alone on this highway to hell

I know heaven's got a stairway
But that climb is where I fell
Emotions block my airways
As I try to hang myself
I'm not sure what all I'm needing
Only time and prayers will tell
But what I know is I'm all alone on this highway to hell