Empty Handed

Now that I'm here
How do I leave you behind?
Been at it for days
My body shaped the same
Am I just floating around
Excusing all my actions?
Swore I'd get some help
I show up empty handed
Why
Did I come here to die?
I should've chose the mountains
Hanging from a tree
Why
Did I come here to live?
I should've let the water
Strip away my skin
Now that I'm here
How do I speak the unspoken?
If I disappear
My body wouldn't notice
Am I just roaming around?
Accepting my behavior
Fear of knowing self
I'm far from any savior
Why
Did I come here to die?
I should've chose the mountains
Hanging from a tree
Why
Did I come here to live?
I should've let the water
Strip away my skin
How do I leave you behind?